Gades Brutal Berbicara

 waah . raye korban neh . aku dgn nurul bangun lewat . hee ^^ . dalam kol  9 pagi baru bangun . sebelah bilik arwah atok aku . faiz dengan iwan . *adik2 sepupu aku . dye0wg baru bangun gak . huhu . then aku dgn nurul p kemas kemas pe sume pas tu p mandi lah . kiteowg sume kemas kemas kan diri jugak nak p kubur arwah atok aku . huhu . aku rase an ni lah kali pertama aku dekat dekat dengan kubur . selama ni mane pernah aku p kubur dekat dekat . setakat tengok jauh je ada lah . huhu . dulu penakut sangat an . Dalam pukul 11 pagi aku p kubur . kiteowg sume r . huhu . ramai r jugak sepupu kiteowg yg g neh . sume nye msih keck2  . xla kecik sgt . dah sekolah rendah n menengah jer . Dah sampi kubur , aku on hp aku . huhu . jerry msg aku . so, aku msg jelah dgn dye ,hee ^^ saya rindu kat awk ! . haha , *gatal . lame lah jugak aku dekt kubur sane . dak2 sepupu yang lain siap kemas kemas kubur orang lain lagi hee ^^ *rajin sangat . dah lepas p kubur . bace bace pe sume . tahlil pe sume

 * continue entry yg semalam . Pagi tu an . dalam kol 7 pagi . kiyah , azira , chrsty and tijot terus p kolej la . sebelum tu dyeowg salam lah dengan aku . huhu . rindu aku at dyeowg tuh . Then aku cepat cepat ler kemas kan diri neh nak p ke stsen bas at bukit jalil . huhu jauh sesangat . beg aku dah berat giler . xtaw ler aku bawak ape . baju lak xbawak banyak pon . huhu . kol 8 pagi aku terus kuar dari umah . huhu banyak aku tinggal barang dekat umah tuh . mang sangat banyak . huhu . bile dah kua dari umah . aku angkat jelah beg berat berat tuh . berat nak mampos derr . ase nak nages . kaki dh sakit sbb xleh nk imbang berat beg tuh dgn bdn ku neh . Berpeluh peluh kan aw . nk ke tren agi . aku nek tren ke gombak . law nk ke gombak xrami pon org nek . bese nye dr wngsa maju nek ke masjid jamek . rami orang . so, aku patah balek ke gombak , dapat siket duduk an . mang rami orang at tren tuh . bila aku dah smpi ke msjid jamek . aku terus beli tiket ke sri petaling *nak ke bukti

 Huhu . terbangun late ler sebab pagi tadi (6 pagi ) baru jer aku tido . huhu . ingat ke dah xleh tido dah . last last aku tertido jugak . huhu . ERM aku bangun dalam kol 11.30 pagi tu pun terdengar handphone ku berbunyi . rupe nyer sepupu aku (nurul a.k.a qiena) yang call aku . dy call aku banyak kali . last last aku tersedar jugak . hee ^^ . Dye call aku suruh aku balek kampung dekat kota tinggi esok pagi . huhu . aku cakap dengan dye *aku mals lah nk balek . lepas aye bru aku balek . Hmm dye pun jawab . * oi pahal ko ni ? orang nak rye balek kpg . ko pulak lepas aye nk balek pulak . tak de tak de aku nak ko p beli tiket sekrg . esok pagi balek kol 10 pagi ko amek bas taw . ingat tu . HUHU tegas tol minah tuh .  aku dengan kelam kabut p mandi . huhu jahat aw wat aku cam tuh . aku xsuke kalau aku jadi kelam kabut . menyampah lah . nanti mengigil aw bila dah kelam kabut neh . tulah aku xsuke . huhu . Lepas aku mandi . aku tertanye tanye * nak beli tiket bas kat mane eak ? aku

Ouh ! Sorry Dearrs , suda lama ku xmenupdatekan blog ini . Huhu . bosan pulak aku rasa . xtaw nak cakap cam nea lagi . mang xada masa nak update . sedang kan hati dan perasaan neh *ceh .jiwank lah pulak . meronta ronta nak update aw . dah lah line dekat sini langsung susah nak dapat . slow giler . sekarang aku dekat kampung sungai telor , kota tinggi , johor . Kawasan pedalaman ni mang menyeksekan aku . seksa argh ! xtaw nak cakap cam nea tempat neh . seram pun ada . nak nanges ase derr . huhu . Sunyi giler dekat sini . gelap kat0p *bak kata org melake .  Tu jelah aku dapat update. sorry ler untuk buat masa sekarang . aku jarang online aw. law pape hal or law rajin siket . aku update lerr yerr ^^ . muahaha ! p/s : tak tahan tinggal at sini :(

 15 NOVEMBER 1992 & 1991 TO MY FRIEND'S DAYANG NURFARAHAINI AND CHRISTINA I LOVE YOU DAMN MUCH CAYUUNKK ^^ Waahh si Farah a.k.a AA . ma sweet ltter sister . more cute pretty beauty hee ^^sayangss Kitak gilak gilak eh . coe wak mun ku da molah salah an ko eh . ku x tauk juak pa ku mok padah . ku dim pun terharu mun ku wish . HAHA . sa mok nanges da juak bah . p nak . kecewa sa idup ku knek . dah lah xpat together gether an ko eh . bepisah juakk aher ny . HUHU . ku sayang ko ilak ilak bah deng ^^ . rindu bebeno ku ngan ko eh . Rindu tahap gila babeng tuk . Coe lah juak jenabb ku xda merik pa pa ngan kawu tuk . Mun ku da ah cnun leh ku celebrate an ko . mok happy happy an ko . boh ko sa sedih eh . mun ko sedeh ku pun mok sedih juak huhu . xeh . ku nank sedh . p xtwuk lah pini gik ku mok pdh an ko kinek . masing masing da problem . kita tuk pn xlari juak dari problem nak ? aku pun ad prob . ko pun ad . Btw , mun da uwank nganok ko . lalek jak pa pdh cdak . wat dongo jak

 Malam semalam susah an aku nak tidoq . Online jelah . berblogwalking an . Xtaw da nak wat pe . Roomate aku * Kiyah nem manje nye . HEHE . hensem orang nye . Laki pandang ada yang cair . yg xleh bla nye . GURL pandang dy . w0w ! terus USHA kawan aku neh . siap mintak nombor handphone lagi tuh . FAMOUS lah kate ka . heee ^^ wink ^^ . okeyh ! back to the tittle *Kiyah dry SHOES with HAIR DRYER ?? . Yupp ! Time aku dok online an . aku tengok member aku neh . da lah esok final exam . relex aje . wat muke cam bese je . cool lah kate kan . member lain dah abis stdy and dah tidoq . tinggal aku dengan kiyah aje yang belum tido . kiteorang mang sokmo tidoq lewat . Dalam kol 11 malam dia benti online then die terus masuk toilet cuci baju yang betimbun timbun cam bukit . HAHA . *Rajin pulak dye . Tu lah aku heran . rajin nye dye malam neh . Dalam kol 12 tengah malam . Dye dah pas cuci sume baju termasuk jugak KASUT dye . Time tu aku xkisah lah . Aku cam bese dengar lagu volume bukan men

On Skype With Linda Onn . Ehh ^^ Sorry :)  Peewiit ^^ Cun tu awek uh . hee ^^ mang cun . chomey . Jerry jeles . suke suki ati i ler nak puji Lynda chomey . Hee ^^ thanks at Lynda gak bab susah susah aje menguploadkan *ayat rojak uh . hehe . all picture Jerry time Korang kua ngn si comel . hee ^^ wink wink . Bajet jadi bapak mithali lerr kunun c Jerry 2 an ? HAHA * padan muke you . Okeyh ! Sambil dok tunggu loading picture Jerry . aku dengan lynda chatting jer ler . dok ngumpat ngumpat . ish3 , terok nyerr . HAHA *ngumpat sape? . hee ^^Pas settle dok tunggu loadng picture jerry and chattg with Lynda . aku offline lerr hee ^^   p/s 1 : Bajet an Kementot [JERRY] ney ? p/s 2 : still sayang AWAK p/s 3 : comey nye c kecil tuh ^^ p/s 4 : Thx Lynda p snap pic c kontot tuh ^^

Malam ini ku sendiri Tak ada yang menemani Seperti malam malam yang sudah sudah Hati ini selalu sepi Tak ada yang menghiasi Seperti cinta yang selalu pupus Tuhan kirimkanlah aku Kekasih yang baik hati Yang mencintai aku apa adanya Mawar ini semakin layu Tak ada yang memiliki Seperti aku ini semakin pupus Tuhan kirimkanlah aku Kekasih yang baik hati Yang mencintai aku apa adanya p/s : asek berjiwank lah pulakk 

i remember what you wore on the first day you came into my life and i thought hey you know this could be something 'cause everything you do & words you say you know that it all takes  my breath away and now  i'm left with nothing so . maybe  it's  true that i cant live without you and maybe two is better than one but there's so much time to figure out the rest of my life and you've already got me coming undone and i'm thinking two is better than one i remember  ever look upon your face the way you roll your eyes , the way you say you make it hard for breathing 'cause i close my eyes and drift away i think of you and everything's ok i finally now believing that maybe it's true that i can't live without you and maybe two is better than one but there's so much time to figure out the rest of my life and you've already got me coming undone and i'm thinking two is better than one

 uterus is the core of justice in this world. u cant stop uterus from rulling you since you were a baby and until the day you will die . UTERUS FTW! 

 people.they more talk-driven. instead of just plain talk, how about you walk the talk. they just know to say "oh thats not the right thing to do" "oh pity you" "thats not fair tell me, what do you guys fighting for? does being normal makes you feel that you're getting all the rights for yourself? until you open your eyes, that is the moment the "chain of stupidness" and "protection bubbles" malfunctioning.  and aku pun tak tahu ler nak cakap cam neah agi . ERM pasal member aku neh . sekarang hampir nak masuk kes polis . Tapi cari aku nak settle hal dye . aku xad kene mengena ngn hal dye . patut ke aku settle kan ? ERM ? and patut gak ke aku terlibat dalam hal dy ? Better jangan libat kan diri dalam kes polis . naye ! cukup lah bende dulu prnh trjadi jgn di arap kn sgt bende gini terjadi lagi . huhu . sorry dearsss ! bukan xnak tolong korang . *neh nak bg alasan . rumah aku dgn korang dh lah jauh . sekarang aku dah xsekole

 all the memories of hate and the lies, dont you know we'll pay the price, all the hopes and dreams will survive, reunite we got to keep our faith alive 

 im hurt, but nobody know, im hurt, but i dont know how can i disperse this pain.  i really need to get real partner, the one that i can meet everyday. the one that i can tell this and that. the one who understands my pain. the one who will swallow it all with me. the one who will walk this path of life with me. please, HEAL ME, SOMEBODY. * * * IM HURT BADLY

 yeah ! orang cakap muka kiteowg hampir nak same . padahal x same pon . sekali imbas je kot . Nem mang lebih kurang . Tarikh lahir kiteowg pun hampir nak dekat . tapi aku tetap kecik dari dye . HAHA . oppss . perasan ! okeyh2 . berbalek entry kali neh . * Bila QieLoyt dengan Tieyjoyt menyanyi . HEHE . yes ! Tijot suke nynyi gak . aku suke dengar . kalu nynyi pon sembnyi sembunyi . Tapi yg salu dgr aku nynyi kiyah jer laa . hee ^^ Malu sangatt lah kunun . bweekk bajet malu kunun . HAHA . Malam neh kiteowg nyanyi Lagu Wannabe By Spice Girl . ala lagu neh yg ada dua orang mamat cute buat miming at Vdeo lam FB . Lagu tuh la kiteowg nynyi hee . law xtaw . search at www.youtube.com  . Yo, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want, So tell me what you want, what you really really want, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want, So tell me what you want, what you really really want, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really really really wan

 Huhu . xtaw nak cakap cam nea da. asek bangun lewat aje neh . keje Aqilah . asek tido tido tido aje . ane x nye gemok . huhu . *ada lak ngate diri sendiri . ISHH x x x x . xbaek ngate diri sendiri . hee ^^ . Erm hari ni aku ada la terjage lam kol 10 pagi . bangun jap . then tido balek . bangun balek lam kol 2 petang . then tido balek lagi . hee ^^ kol 4.30 petang g tu baru bangun kot , . pas tu aku text Jerry . kejap aje . dye pn xbals . mls ler nk lyn . Dah bangun . sakit lak ase badan neh tido lame lame . aku ingt aku sorang je cam neh . Upe nye ada gak nek sekaki ngn aku  *Kiyah laa . dye pon same . bangun bangun terus online and xmandi lagi . HAHA . Aku dok tengah online . Zira , tijot and christy ajak kua makan . aku cakap at dyeowg * Wey . kowunk g dulu t aku turun . nak p mndi dulu .. Tu jela aku cakap . tapi dah p mandi . aku lak lame nak p siap . tengok2 zira da balek umah dah abis makan at kedai makan . huhu . Agak nye lame ler ak p mandi eak . Lepas mndi tu kiya

 Isk.. isk.. isk.. Aku menangis, aku terkedu. Ya Allah, Kau ampunkanlah aku dan cucurilah roh ibuku di kalangan orang yang beriman . Hamba-Mu ni anak yang derhaka, anak yang tak mengenang jasa. Hamba-Mu ini tak tahu menilai intan dan kaca. Hamba-Mu ni alpa dan asyik dengan keseronokan dunia, bangga dengan diri sendiri, ego... Kini semuanya tak berguna lagi, ibuku telah tiada.Dan aku anak tunggalnya yang diharap-harapkannya gagal memberi kasih sayang dan menjaganya di usia tua..Oh! Kejamnya hamba-Mu ini... Aku mengimbau.... "Man malu mak! Semua kawan-kawan Man mengejek Man. Mereka kata mak Man raksasa, hodoh. Ada satu mata aja." "Biarlah Man, lama-lama mereka akan penat bercakap. Mereka akan berhenti mengata Man lagi." "Arghhh... Man tak peduli mak. Mereka sentiasa mengejek Man. Mak janganlah datang ke sekolah Man lagi. Man malu mak.. Man ada mak yang hodoh, mata satu. Man malu mak!" Rizman bangun lalu pergi ke biliknya. Dia berazam nak belajar s

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 [ will.i.am ] I got so much love For you darlin' and i, I wanna let you know how I feel And its true that I love you And it's true your the only one and I do, I adore you And its true girl You make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x [Fergie] You said - you said - you said That im the only one You said that im your number 1 Now your gone and I feel numb Tell me where do we go wrong You are my best friend and boyfriend Now its seems like you're my worst friend I gotta do soul searching Without you im a whole different person I aint acting like I used to I don't feel loved like I used to It was your love I was used to Why do I had to lo-lo-lo-lose Your love your love your love Your love is what it was That have me feeling **bust** ***you are my true love*** [will.i.am] And its true that I love you And it's true your the only one and I do I adore you And its true girl You make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x [apl.de.ap] Hey girl u

 "Innocence" Waking up I see that everything is OK The first time in my life and now it's so great Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed I think about the little things that make life great I wouldn't change a thing about it This is the best feeling [Chorus] This innocence is brilliant I hope that it will stay This moment is perfect Please don't go away I need you now And I'll hold on to it Don't you let it pass you by I found a place so safe, not a single tear The first time in my life and now it's so clear Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere I wouldn't change a thing about it This is the best feeling [Chorus] It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming It's the happiness inside that you're feeling It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming It's the happiness insi

 I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love I did, I did And you were strong and I was not My illusion, my mistake I was careless, I forgot I did And now when all is done There is nothing to say You have gone and so effortlessly You have won You can go ahead tell them Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof top Write it on the sky love All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Falling out of love is hard Falling for betrayal is worst Broken trust and broken hearts I know, I know Thinking all you need is there Building faith on love is worst Empty promises will wear I know (i know) And know when all is gone There is nothing to say And if you're done with embarrassing me On your own you can go ahead tell them * * * Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof

 i watch a movie entitled buried. an innocent american kena tanam dengan iraqi people due to he is a AMERICAN. seeing from the AMERICAN point of view, dia kena mcm tu sbb dia AMERICAN. its not fucking fair.and eventho dia kapir pun,dia tak deserve mcm tu unless dia buat something. and its a shame for muslim people to do that.our prophet tak ajar siksa org camtu.our religion tak ajar kita buat mcm tu. ah im lost nite. *citer palink borink !

 waah ari ni bangun lam kol 10 pagi then tido balek . ngntuk xsudah sudah . penink pon xsudah sudah lagi . sakit nye kple . xsngke smpi ke hari ni pon lom okeyh lagi . semlm demam aw . ari ni okey cket la . myb xbese an p sane . tmpt sejuk sejuk . kaki kejang . kebas kebas . teramat amat lah sejuk . thnks la jerry sebb awk ada , huhu . xtahn ase . Love you Jerry :) . Dalam kol 2 petang aku bangun balek . Lynda msg . tanye Jerry . aku pon call la jerry agi taw at dy Lynda cri . Pas tu aku on9 je la . mandi pon lom . terus on9 hee ^^ . lepas on9 chat chat with jerry and Lynda . aku sambung tido pulak . haha . Kol 4 ptg bangun jap . Kiyah ajak kua mkn . tijot pon same . aku pon terus p mandi . kiyah pon lom mandi . baru bangun jugak . huhu . kepale penink agi . nak tanak je kua . p perut lapar sgt . kua jelah . tp kiteowg kua late . sbb aku mndi lme . then kiyah . mang r lame kene tunggu kiteowg nk bersiap . tijot dok tnggu jugak . p sambil tu dy bace note at FB aku "JUBAH U

I HATE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING    peduli ape kau . Fuck off ! shit ! *lame aku xsumpah orang . bape kali aku nak cakap hah ? xpaham paham ke ? benda dah lepas sudah la . buat apa kau nak ungkit ? tahu pun menyesal . s0, forget it what happen between us  . I do not need u . i have bf  now . Please dispose of your feelings on me . Hmm i think somebody in my life has to walk away.its not that i hate u or what but there is a need of space for someone better in my life to walk in and i think its you. I HA TE Y O U  I HAT E Y OU I HAT E Y O U 

 i dont think that u'll keep it. but i did see em and i see him too. well thats was unexpected from you. tell me where am i in ur heart and brain. and please tell me i am between those nasty and wet wound and scars 

 Ceh ! ari ni ukan bangun sendiri da. Lynda lak anto mesg at ku . cam mengejut jer . hee ^^ malu nye . muke neh bawu bangun . haha ! 2 p0n Lynda ajak kua ari neh . hee ^^ aku on jela kebetulan aku pun xad wat pe . bored dekat umah . mesej2 jelah ngn dye . Lynda soh kejut c jerry . Banyak kali call . anto mesg pon c kontot 2 xbalas . cam nak giler call nombr mamat tuh . Last2 bawu tahu yg c kontot 2 p men futsal . ish3x Plan Lynda nak kua petang sebab nak tunggu c Jerry pas men futsal . okeyh set ! Pagi tuh aku mang bangun awal . then terus p mandi . lepas mandi terus on9 . lame jugak on9 . then p basuh baju pe sume . kemas kemas umah . Hari ni rajin siket . anta mesg dekat tijot aku : oyt . balek nti ko beli lauk k . aku p mask nasi jer tijot : okeyh . balek nanti aku beli Then tengah hari tu aku terus je masak nasi . tijot just p beli lauk lepas balek kelas nanti . Erm dalam kol bape entah kiyah bawu balek dari kelas . aku terus buat air hee ^^ ish3 kenape lah ari ni aku

 Eh ? Aku leh lak terbangun lam kol 10 lebih kot . 2 p0n Lynda dok menganto mesg kate jerry kim salam . mengo0ng jerry tuh . dyeowg neh asek mengate jer eak ? ish2 . Aku pun msg jelah ngn Lynda cute tuh ^^ . upe nye Tengah hari tu dyeowg dok lunch . Lepas msg ngn Lynda . aku terus ler p mandi . hee ^^ bored lak . xtaw nak wat pe . dok mengutuk c jerry je laa . mang dy kontot pon . perasan TUFF kunun bweekk ! Leps mndi terus ler hobi ku ini . menon9 je la haha ! xad keje lain . asek on9 jer mak cik aqilah yer . (ye la , da xtaw nk wat pe)  . huhu . tgh2 dok on9 tuh . komen2 je ngn Lynda hee ^^ . Lynda ajak kua lau ak free . 2 p0n law aku free . hee ^^  sehari neh asek msg ngn Lynda jela . jerry jaat sangat . xnak mesg ngn kite neh . kesian ase . huhu . biala . lame gak dok on9 . then aku terus tidur petang tuh . bangun balek . malam tuh msg agi ngn Lynda hee ^^ . lepas msg ngn Lynda . aku ngn kiyah tido awal kot . rami gak tido awal . lagi pun esok dyeowg exam . ish2 . kiyah mang